"Catholic or not, you should be going for sainthood..." My friend Sarah told me as we were discussing things over Skype. As much as I appreciated the odd comment, I don't think sainthood works that way lol, but rather defeats the purpose of sainthood.
We were discussing a friend of ours who was admitted to a hospital a month or so ago for drug detox and psychological help after contemplating/attempting suicide. She was in for about a little over a week, Sarah and I would alternate visiting with her to check in on her and to let her know people were still there for her. When she got out, I volunteered to drive her to therapy sessions every morning for roughly a week as well so that her already stressed mom could relax a bit.
Sadly, things were going down hill. Fights between her and everyone, stopping to go on her own to sessions, and eventually, a relapse into her addictions. She was even using while I was visiting her yesterday, which I think hurt the most.
I've been recently going through Matthew 18 as I remembered back in class that there was a passage about confronting people. Once in private, Second with another person to help back you up, and third before a congregation of believers; but, if she no longer believes in God, what then, should I go ahead and leave them? As it is, Sarah has already left her aside, and the girl turns back to the drugs to cope instead of reaching out to the people that are her friends.
Simply obvious, she needs to get back with Christ, as He's the only one strong enough to help her get through this. Alas, I've been a poor example and have pretty much lost my focus, even with trying to support her with an aim of not needing drugs to feel good.
I have failed.
Part of me wants to drop the friendship as I've been letting this affect me, but another side of me wants to continue trying. What is it with me and this mindset? It's not healthy, yet I want to try and fix things and people's issues which usually leaves me worn out.
Father, what I am to do? *sighs* I just can't tell right now.
One of the saddest facts I know is that you can't help someone who won't help him/herself. Even Jesus asked people before touching them, "do you want to be healed?" because some don't. So maybe the best thing to pray for is for the Lord to bring her heart to the point of accepting His help and others'.
ReplyDeleteI and several others in my Bible study are praying for that. I was told the other night that she's now fighting with about every one of the friends that really care about her and it saddens me all the more. What is to be gained by all this, it alludes me.
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