Walk with me, walk with Him
A few days ago I went on a walk around town for eight miles, mostly to get some fresh air, but more so for some alone time with God. I'd been in Plainview for a week then searching for work there and in the surrounding areas as far as Lubbock without much success. The jobs that I've been able to apply for have since either rejected me, or have yet to contact me and I've run out of time for waiting. I'll be driving back to Houston 4am Saturday and too be honest the thought of leaving this place again has me a bit sick. This place has become my home and the people here family and it hurts to leave.
Father, where is it that you wish for me to go?
I know that eventually families will split to form new families, and that eventually we move out of our old homes to build new ones, but even after a year I still can't shake the feeling of longing for here. Pulls to certain people, partially out of the deepness our friendships have gotten and partially out of fear of losing that connection.
Father, to what vocation do you call me to?
The best part of this little trip was being around those I love and the one that inspires me. I feel rejuvenated to write again, which is good because I've learned that the first portion of one of my stories got deleted -- whoops. It's one of my prayers that these stories will become something more than just a text file on my computers and be an instrument for spreading hope and faith in Christ, even if in a C. S. Lewis manner.
Speaking of writing, I've decided to take some advice and talk to the CEO of Ten3 to see if there's something I can do to help with their missions and goals. With my past supervisor off the radar I've been a bit antsy to do something and until recently just needed the push to get a step forward taken. I can't wait to see where God will lead me in this, and I ask that those of you who read this will pray along with me on this.
Today feels like another day for walking, I'm not sure if I'll go the same route, but I know it will be in the same fashion, listening to God's words and continue praying. To pray for rain on a clear day, but its always raining somewhere.
May I see you in my walk, Father, and get in step to walk beside you.
~ J
-----Second Walk-----
I can't seem to grasp how I can take a totally different route and still end up walking the same distance... bizarre yet cool.
After the last walk I've come to a few conclusions
1. Discovering just how much my soul aches for more of God
2. how much my heart aches to seek what He has for me.
3. I still have a good ways to go in several areas of my life.
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Today is my last full day here in Plainview, and I have a sinking feeling that I won't be returning here for quite a bit of time. My hope to find a job to allow me to stay here for a little bit longer has failed and I'm starting to think that maybe God doesn't need me here anymore, which saddens me deeply but I know what He has planned for me would be so much greater than what I had in mind. I pray though that this doesn't mean that the friendships I've cultivated here and hold dear will not cease and that they'll continue to grow, but that's for Him to decided.
For those of Plainview and other portions of West Texas, I love you all and I shall continue to keep you in my prayers.
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